Delta Control: Ground Control To Major Tom:

He said, She said

another word misconstrued

another line taken out of context

we did they did

who did really

or 

do we really care any more 

they say 

its a dog eat dog world

but 

I don't see any dogs 

eating each other

I just see humans

ripping off another limb

to gorge their very self s

as the world spins ever faster

to a closer of nothing

people say 

life is what you make it

well how can that be

when others take it

self gain self greed

fat cats sitting on mats

of stolen gold

the poor weep 

and

the starving cry

oh the might.. 

don't cry at their plight

stop and your slow

might as well get off now

give it up

you showed emotion

and that makes you weak

here come the vultures

for their pound of flesh

they wont care

nor stop

your in their way

to that every lasting lunch

their 7 bags of silver in hand

a wry smile

they own the world

and all that's in it

who are we to pretend

we are anything more

we could make a stand 

say No More

would they hear the cries

on 

Capitol Hill

or 

Parliament Square

perhaps, perhaps not

does it matter

when you have the mighty hand

to crush the rebellion

of those not appeased

we loose all we have

everyday

and the while

the earth keeps turning

until there is no where to turn

and the end comes

where will be your oil 

your gold 

your mansion in the hills 

your egos and plastic surgeries

pool boys and maids

and teenage baby mommas

who cant survive

without the money

to feed their own babies

the drugs the lies

the schemes the scandals

the murders 

and cover ups

all for what 

nothing but dead silence

in a cold dark space

that is now your home

_ _ _ _ _ _

Yesteryear:

One of my all time favourite movie lines

comes from the film Gladiator

the line simply says:

If you find yourself alone, riding in the green fields with the sun on your face, do not be troubled. For you are in Elysium 
( Roman For Heaven )

This made me pause and think

of 

times when young

how we would run through tall blades of grass

in fields deep and wide

our arms outstretched

so that 

our hands brushed each stem

how soft and gentle it did feel

with the sun on ones face

and not a care in the world

oh but to be young again

the silence of city life

dimmed by the wildness

that was around us so

upon the ground we would lay

staring up at the blue skies

making pictures 

out of the sailing clouds

of too places

we could only dream

maybe a pirate island

or even the seven seas

it did not matter

for to us

they where going

wherever we wanted them to go

such times 

seem so long ago

but oh so fondly remembered

with a passion and love

that keeps the memory alive

in my heart and mind

to replay

when walking in fields of grass

I still reach out my hands

touch the grass

feel it moving in the breeze

that pushes by 

and all at once

I am reminded

age 

does not hinder

for

we can all still be

young once again

when running through 

fields of grass

~X~

A Night's Dream No Less:

Come lay with me..
come caress the night

and 

all its beauty within me so
replayed on an on
through my mind
shown but in my eyes
let the candle slow burn 
down to nothing
the stars shine bright 

enough for us both
each we will see 
and our
lips touch they will
with
gentle movement 
of 
bodies entwined
almost as if Lily was here
as 
the moon watches us 
sail on home

through the galaxies wide
until 
we have reached that place 
called love
and lay you down beside me so
I will until slumber comes
and dreams alight 

the very reason....
why we have....
but....

tonight....

~X~

Winged Adoration:

How clever is nature

in all its abundance

my court yard garden

host to feathered friends

cats and mice

the spider here and there

spinning their webs

catching the morning due

a few plants flowers

shrubs and bushes

to encourage them

all to stay a while

some fruits and vegatables

for my own consumption

and of course to share

with my special friends

and herein lies my tale

of but

my cabbage patch with a few

growing here and there

upon them so

after I had taken my fill

lies the babies 

tiny minute creatures

like that of needles

but bit by bit

their colour does come

and to grow they do

feasting feeding upon 

the mighty green leaves

and when they have gorged

fattened themselves

I see the mightiest of creatures

the caterpillar himself

in 4 days he has grown

from needle to finger

with colours so bright

he is but a eating machine

readying himself 

for the journey ahead

today upon gazing

visiting my garden

I do but notice

my large fingered fat friends

have but gone and a tinge of sadness lays

but then I realise

as I look up to the bush above

therein lays my friend

in his silk woven chrysalis

warm and snug

ready for the transformation

where upon he will grow 

twist and turn

change an morph

before erupting

into the bright sunshine

as a beautiful butterfly

colours so bright an vivid

where upon to the wing he will take

and as he passes I will surely give a wave

and say thanks to Mother Nature

for allowing me to see the beauty

the creation 

of life

right before 

my very eyes

~X~

A Reflection Of Me: ( Not a poem more a insight to me )

Do not believe in anything because you have heard it.
Do not believe in anything because it is spoken by many.
Do not believe in anything because it is written in religious books.
Do not believe in anything on the authority of your teachers.
Do not believe in traditions just because they have been handed down.
But after observation and analysis,  when you find that anything agrees with reason and is conducive to the good and benefit of one and all, then accept it and live up to it.

~X~

I have been a Buddhist for three years now

in that time I have become peaceful and rested

more then I have ever been

my torment my pain

I allowed to rule me

I turned to Buddhism due to my illness

an my life how I was living

in the long process of it all

I have come to understand myself

my actions and words

though I realise I am still human

my heart does still beat with emotion

I do often make mistakes

Being a Buddhist allows me to look back

to accept what it is I have done

or said or even thought

and then allowed me to change myself 

in the given situation

though my heart my rule

and my thoughts may become clouded

even jaded at times

I know that if I step back

make my peace

I can make myself a better person

for me and those around me

I have come to find the things

I once dearly loved and appreciated

The wonder of the world

and the beauty in it

from a flower to a tree

to the bird song in the sky

from a running river

to a trickling stream

from child's laughter

to a lovers touch

I know inside I am part of all this

and so so much more

I am not a pure Buddhist 

for I live a life that cannot be given totally

though in my heart and my mind

I am a Buddhist to the best of my abilitys

and everyday I am still learning

developing becoming

all that I surely wish to be one day

at peace with myself

an the world outside

बोधि

Empty Words:

They say

sticks and stones may break my bones

but words cannot hurt me

oh how little they know

for you see

Some come with words 

to use as weapons

speaking in tongues

mostly forked

to speak ill to push the boundaries

they say words if good intent

lure you in and make you have belief

in them and their actions

trust grows and moments shared

until somehow something changes

and you become the giver

they the feeder

and 

when they have gorged 

eaten taken their fill

your left but a empty shell

their words rattle around inside

as they ask for more and more

you become self aware

of all they do an say

make a change 

with the last drop of strength

you change the course

live your life for you

an not them that wish to feed

more and more

they do not see 

they do not know

they just assume its the right thing to do

when you have rebelled 

pushed away what it is

that comes like a thief in the night

robs you of your virtue

faith and belief

trust and hope

they turn the screws

lash out in anger

for they are loosing control

not number one any more

when you don't come back to the fold

they intensify the anger

speaking of things not true

their viper tongues

hissing in your ears

involving others

pushing them away

so they can control you

for themselves

when it dawns on them so

you have gone 

they have lost their grip

they become the victim

and speak in tongues to others

making lies

to make you look bad 

it makes no odds to them

their words unashamed

in their hurtful content

they do not see

they do not feel

the torture and pain within

cast by a selfish mind

wanting nothing more

then all you can do for them

~~~~~~~~~~~~

I know that not ALL people we befriend are like this

or set out to hurt you in such a way

but it seems for me

the people I trust around me so

often end up using me

hurting me in their games

I am a solitary person

and live my life alone

I have seen and felt too much pain

to want to travel that road again

peace and solitude 

allow me to be me

without the need to have to do something

that gets me nothing in return

when I may need it so

I am lucky to be honest

I have people around me

I adore love and trust

and know in my heart

out of the hundred who come

and who go

they are always by my side

I thank you for that

always


~X~

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