A Fathers Son:

A brief

My Son ( eldest ) left school today

16 and now a man

but in my mind

I am still there at that time

remembering

when he was able 

to surely fit 

in my arms so

So this is my poem to him

Once so young so little
A smile a frown
But you had my hand
Together this world
We would conquer

Learn to walk learn to run
Along the way a stumble
Even a fall or two
It was always ok
For I was there for you so
Now time has come
Collected it's minutes
An you have become
A man my son
Walk tall walk proud
You are strong an brave
An the apple
Of your Fathers eyes
Always an forever

~X~

Unification:

Hands held in unification

one single unity

in the same belief 

the same want

and need

perhaps of each other

or a single cause

the right to speak

say and urge

knowing the other

is right by their side

supporting 

holding them fast

no matter the distance

colour an depth

of each other

be it male or female

but

what if that chain breaks

if it all falls apart

and the one you support

or the one that supports you

is suddenly not there

how does one walk alone

knowing the person they had

with them so

is no longer there

holding your hand fast

but a ghostly image

left to burn in the mind

when all you have is their words

uttered in the corridors 

of the empty mind

as if a silent movie

that plays on and on

adjustment understanding

withheld

for the rational becomes the irrational

and the rain turns to tears

for all you have

is empty memories

and 

no understanding

as to why

left to live in a moment

where by your side they was

as

one mind

one breath

~X~

Beauty Captured:

Sunshine days

as flowers bloom

smiling on me so

waving their petals

as if hands to see

birds sing high in the trees

as the cool shade

filters the light

down on me so

bees hum on by

collecting the summer fruits

a labour worth

its weight in gold

the cats lay as if no energy

sleeping basking

in the bright warm light

a book or two

or maybe just a cold drink 

as one sits and reflects

on this little slice of heaven

a smile a laugh

as people gather

to share the food harvested

fresh fruits and creams

laughs aloud

as another wine is surely poured

the hint of apple

as the cider is passed

perhaps another slice

oh go on then 

twilight beckons from beyond

as the sky lights up

in a mirad of reds and yellows

as the sun says goodnight

and the birds sing goodbye

to a day so glorious

knowing tomorrow

is but another day

in my little garden of Eden

~X~

Music In You:

Music a constant stream

that reminds one self 

of life and the emotion of life

love frustration

hope happiness

and even the darkness of life

itself within and out

how the notes can lead us

to the moon and stars

to the centre of the earth

and all the way back again

a timeless journey

that doesn't end

until the music stops

be it strings or chords

melodies and beats

to pianos and drums

to flutes and harps

all play a sound

that resounds deep within

the soul and heart

of man and woman alike

some will make you dance

some sit an stare

others drift away to other plains

whilst many just feel 

and move

as if Fred Astaire

music is a language

a speech of its very own

that can express mean so very much

one meaning to one

another to someone else

from the beating of a drum

to the shrill of a flute

each a unique sound

upon the ear

a sound or two 

can bring a happiness galore

and so the next time

a song plays

ask yourself why

you like it so 

then close your eyes 

and 

simply feel

to me ... is like as if

I am stood in the river of life

and it moves under my feet

how about you

?

~X~

Omni:

I am not what they speak of
their
whispers float on the wind
through the trees
in the dead
of the cold barren nite
no matter where I walk
sit nay rest
I am but the very reason
the wind may blow
the river moves
the oceans crash
the volcanoes erupt
and the lands part
I am every breath
every thought
and
reason as to why
the sun
the moon
an
a million billion trillion
shining stars
far and wide
a single heartbeat
a multitude of cells
a burst of light
upon the eyes
a shrew in the field
the owl in the barn
the bird on the wing
even its sweet summer sonnet
the rain on your face
the snow on your roof
a dog passing by
as a cat sleeps lazily
outstretched without concern
a bell that rings
a child that laughs
a subtle soft cry
a gentle weep
a large smile
a raucous chortle
to a crystal tear drop
upon the hand
for I am
everything
everyone
everywhere
always

~x~

Dimming:

Neon lights shine from within

tear drop rain 

running down the windows so

leaving trace marks

as if a saddened lover

cry weeping for love lost

car lights coming closer

and fading past 

just as fast

leaving a blur

to where they go

I have no knowledge

maybe home

or even to work

as their lights leave 

many a reflection

upon the pavement

I walk 

thoughts drift 

my sense alive

as if a cat

prowling in the darkness

secrets show themselves

as lovers kiss 

in doorways of darkness

hands entwined

arms linked

sharing a moment

only ever for them 

my walk takes me past

a thousand windows

an just as many doors 

each hiding the lives within

a sound of laughter

floats past my ears

as further on

someone weeps gently

a raised voice

echoes beyond

a hushed silence

captures my mind

as on past I walk 

never really 

reaching my end

a late night walk

tells a thousand stories

but shelters a million more

wondering pondering

if tomorrow

it will be as it is now

as the darkness I step into 

closing the lights behind me so

~X~

Ebbing:

My heart your heart our heart

how it beats so 

wildly at the thought

of something oh so much more

calmly at the the peace within

given upon a sacred moment

listen to it's gentle whisper

the words a sonnet

as the heart gently does

beat its deep sounding drum

each word a lullaby

to internal bliss

at the very thought

of what will be

what is

in the hope of always 

holding it close within

and yet if locked away to tight

it will surely starve

choke wilt and fade

but let it fly let it soar

yes it might shatter

as if made from crystal

if touched handled wrongly

a risk is a risk

how do you know

unless you open your heart

and feel the rhythm deep inside

resounding it's deafening beat

within you so

as you surely fly

as if a eagle

high in the sky

surrounded by a blue sea

and floating islands

of opalescent white fluff candy

how you land 

is but your choice

in the dance that is

a life less then ordinary

within the realms of 

if anything this human heart

~X~

Winter Nights:

Winter bound tis I, upon this colden night

my bed borne but of no comfort

vast and wide like that of a ocean

with no person to help me sail in her so

no laughter or warmth of skin

to refresh my tired body

but that of the street light

glowing afar

the white walls playing

  blackened figured shapes upon them so

as if caricatures of a olden time

 no noise do be heard then that

of my beating heart loud and slow

awaiting to be awoken from its steel cage

a key a key oh to be found

but hasten bidding will do no favour

for alone time will tell

if the one shall come to free me

from this prison so as the nite draws in

and

the moon shines above

slowly I sink away

to the endless possibilities

of a less then ordinary life

without you

so

Velvet Nights:

You see them when your out
woken from a bad dream
or simply had to get out
of the very restricting confines
of your self made prison

but do you notice them

take time to really see them

for how they are

the walking wounded

its on every face

on every tree of life

traced in the lines of age

their suffering muted inside

but spilling out 

into their very lives

misfortune their only 
constant familiar companion

as they stroll under the sheets of rain

under dim lit street lights

of the rain soaked nite

on past hobbled hunched men 
of the drink

seeking salvation within its depths

on past those sleeping in doorways

long forgotten and left too cold

past the running waters of the Thames

as it flows and winds away

with their very dreams

lost forever more

no one to hold them 

or keep them safe

the hands that held them

now long gone 

withdrawn into the murky depths

of the blackness of the nite

and whilst it may seem

they cannot will not be reached

have you stopped to notice

and speak to 
the walking wounded

time is nothing to us

to them is but everything

for their time was long taken away

by the very actions

of those who failed to notice

such a long time ago

as they was left to mire

in a world not ours

~X~

Identity:

Do you ever sit and wonder

pause and reflect about the life

you live the breaths you take

do you remember the people you meet

and how they touched your life so

is it inane to hope they will stay

or will they pass you by

like the north wind

travelling its passage

if it rains on you so

does it cleanse you through

making you whole once more

or are you simply sat

cold and distant

wishing

for a better time

either way we all must reflect

for to do so 

creates a positive outlook

to the paths ahead

and be it I walk them alone

or with someone

its sure to be

a eventful journey

to embrace it all

and pause every now and then

reflect and enjoy

the moments so

for they are the very make up

of the memories you carry

wether in light

or in darkness

sure footed you must be

to reach the other side

of the glimmering pool

or opulent radiance

that is your life 

echoed in the mind

and ether around you so

~X~

Might:

I cant always touch the sky

I seem to fall at my knees

despaired and drained

I try my hardest 

and leap so high

but at some point

I always end up falling down

touching it seems so easy

so able so willing

and yet

it happens not

no matter how I try

but you know its ok

I have no worries no fear

for I have touched it once

or maybe it touched me

and all at once

I was at one

at peace within and without

and so no matter the times

I will keep on trying

for the end

is but the want

to touch the sky

~X~

So High:

Oh how high one can be

when you out stretch your arms

and allow yourself to be

simply lifted on high

after all the aches and pains

tears and misery

you can still soar as if

you where the Eagle on a wing

inside the heart soars

and the mind flies

beyond the day

of all that was has been

awashed in a new unbound

moment of utter freedom

your soul unconnected 

to the ethereal voices

but everything within

as the echoes of eternity

play on within you so

this is the moment of rejoice

maybe even capture

of a mind set so strong

nothing can or will break its bound

like a invisible tie

that wont break

let alone shed

you are but a particle

within the circle 

of this here life

around you so

spread your arms 

raise them so

and know

today has just begun

for you are

the sun

the moon

and the stars

and all that is between

for now and forever more

restless voices

tormented dreams

breaking fibres

are

human bound

beyond is the freedom

of a soul cleansed

free to breathe

beyond the needs

wants

of a life

less then ordinary

~X~

H.M.S Alone:

Its been a while since I've been here

mostly been clearing the decks

washing down the sides

dusting the eves

and polishing the rails

I think I am ready to sail again

to cast of from shore

and drift away finally

once an for all

And so I ask this

have you ever wanted something

so bad so much

that saying goodbye

tears the heart in two

letting go for that instant

is like your dying inside

over and over

again

oh I know she will be back

there 

with me once again

but 

she's not there

in that very instance

when I want to beg

plead on knees

asking for her to not leave

no matter how long or short

the time will be

my tears well inside

close to breaking down

and weeping

the bed seems mighty cold

and so very vast

as if a ocean 

I cannot sail surely

alone in

I need my star to guide me home

to weather my storms

to brace my main

to reach out unto me

pull me close into her world

of utter divinity

so that I can rise strong again

her words still ring in my ears

when my head hits the pillow

and yet reaching out

she is not there

just the cold emptiness

oh God why

if only

there could be but a way

to show her so

that I do need her so very much

and that without her so

I am but another lost vessel

to the vast expanse

ocean that is my mind

each and every nite

when we say goodbye

~X~