Unique:

A million and one guises I've have been

fallen and settled amongst you so

withered and shrunk

washed away with the sun rays

only to return another day

as a different design

beauty I am wonderment I cause

as you watch me drift slowly

down to earth

from the heavens above

on a cold winters day

or night

covering the your world

in a utter white blanket

snow men your make

round and tall

short and thin

as we bind each other within

roll us you will in warm palms

only to be burst apart

as if confetti at a wedding

to the ground we will but fall

to be trodden and squashed 

waiting for the next warm hand

some of us will surely melt 

into puddles of water

that reflect a purity

not seen before

in this life of yours

dreams we hold

dreams we bring

all on a Christmas day

~X~

Remember The Time:

A shining light in the darkness

things said done by others

perhaps envious nay jealous

of a unmistakable talent

that shook this world

to its very core

remembering the time

when you was I was bad

perceptions shaken

beliefs often mistaken

by those ignorant 

to the fact

genius you was 

dance a dance 

and show me the way to go

for the way you made me feel

I couldn't ever stop loving you

times shared moments given

by you to us

in devout faith

of the belief of a better day

when all along

it was so clear

they didn't care about us

ghosts let loose

in this mix of delight

sadness and joy

brought forward

in but a eternal voice

of everybody

at this here heartbreak hotel

the torture was worth the wait

of one more chance

whilst they tripped on you

God Bless

Sleep now

~X~

Yule Tide:

Christmas time 

holly and ivy

kids glee and eyes shining

presents and gifts seen

wanted by all 

wish upon a star or two

in the hope 

your receive
as well to give to see the smiles
things to deliver 

cards to post

to loved ones far away

thoughts of those gone

remembered on 

a drink or two

sing a song 

and rejoice at all

fires crackling

stockings hung on the mantle so

waiting in eagerness

for the brimming of surprises

satsumas and nuts

shared out in joyful return

as grandad sips his malt

the old folk speak 

of a past time

when children didn't have much

and men had no work

and the children laugh

and smile

at such stories
hopefully the snow will fall
and we will gather
a snowman or too
snowball fights
and sledging too
in the kitchen warm and smelling
of fruits and delights
as Mum And Dad prepare
the fine feast
that is Christmas dinner
sit we will 
and a cracker where pull
jokes spoken 
and the wine poured
dinner bursting the belly so

as Mum pours brandy

upon the Christmas pudding

oooOOOooo

the delights of the blue flame

as nostrils fill

with the heavenly scents

of this Christmas time

as one we are

and as one we will be

sharing rejoicing

and remembering those

alone this year

fighting

for us to enjoy

our

Yule Tide

Merry Christmas

~X~

A Vision Of You:

Oh too see but the grace of you

feeling you in outstretched arms

held safe and secure

in the depths of you

the beating heart of need

love and want

guiding me on home

to all that is you

slow intricate whispers

passed on down

telling me you care

saying that you are

but the only one 

laid upon the bed so

as stars fall from the nite sky

to kiss the black velvet

that is the moons very own 

personal playground

silence adorns the bespoken

and slowly I drift away

until there is only

the feel and smell of but you

lifting my senses 

soothing this soul

at one

now

and

forever more

~X~

Stop:

Time is like a clock in my heart

it never stops ticking

doesn't slow doesn't pause

just keeps on winding down

the minutes the hours

days and weeks

months and years 
until there is only the silence

for now the clock turns 

its hands reaching

for those lost moments 

gone to where ever it is

time surely goes

maybe to the wind 

or even the heavens

were its stored and saved 

for another moment

to be shared perhaps

by someone else

in another time another place

time is always eternal

and will always be

constituently turning without that pause

until there is only time left

escape you may try

run you surely will

but far you wont reach

afore the time concludes

and your left with nothing

but the hollowness

of the empty heart

long run out and long vacated

left standing but alone 
so for now as the time goes by

the seconds I do grab and surely hold

the minutes I use to find

all I need and want

to wile away the hours

for living is free

and surely enjoying

never aware that behind the doors

time slowly slips on by

~~~

Midest The Brain:

Moments of momentary looseness
seem to be more often

then not before
grey mists circulate the mind

often hiding doors 

to which more then not
I once knew laid beyond

and so had no need to visit

let alone open

swirling cries of confusion

haunt the corridors
leaving me beside myself

asking if I am in fact me

let alone Angelus

colours distort twisting

as if a broken mirror

unable to reflect back

the true image of what I am

or even who I am

a sense of lost prevails

and words said

mean not what they are

lines spoken unto me

lost in the eons of nothing

as one struggles to make sense

of all that is will be should be

simply can be

for each day is but a fight

to the finish line

when the head hits the pillow

and I don't have to think 

why do this

for why to keep on fighting

to ache to feel starved

of life's luxerys

I ask this often I beg often

to understand to find a reason

and beyond me beyond this

is a life that is less then ordinary

and though constraints tie me bound

I am but me living in a broken shell

who can and will smile

that will not be devout of strength

faithfulness and belief

and the hope and promise
that there is always tomorrow

Right ?

Thanks Giving !

Seeing you out and about
watching as you strut
amazed as you flaunt
bringing you home
the long car journey
my eyes on you all the way
lips licked in eager hesitation
dragging you through the door
into the kitchen
across the table
touching your flesh
feeling your breasts
moulding them shaping them
sliding my hands up your thighs
plump and rounded
damn so firm
and yet so tender
laying you down
upon the pine wood
and entering you
stuffing you with all I have
watching as your
taking it all
more and more
smearing you in honey
caressing your skin
tying your legs
trussing you up
in this wild game of ours
basting you in your own juices
WoW your so hot
this feels so right
sizzling upon my side board
I want to eat you all up
taste you on my lips
your heaven scent
that special taste
mmm mm mmm
.
.
.
.

Don't you just love a fresh Turkey !!

Happy Thanks Giving !!!

My All:

The rain fell last night

glistening like diamonds

upon my window

each a capsule of my dreams

only to fall away

breaking shattering

leaving behind the pieces

of what was 

the coldness creates a steam

were upon I draw your name

wondering as you sleep

do you still care

my heart aches 

and my mind runs wild

with the mistakes one makes

when confused and lost

in making it so right

that wanting touch 

of your arms 

around me so

to tell me its ok

and that this will be now and ever

my wish to you upon the stars

to love you for you

all that's said done and wanted

left in hands of those above

can it be so will it be so

if only I reach out

to tell you how much

I love you so 

that I really do care

that no matter the distance

time or space

there is a bond

hidden but strengthened
by a need so strong

of but each other

crystal pools of tears

well at the bottom of my pane

and in them your face emerges

whispering unto me

sleep now sleep

for tomorrow is a new day

and you are in my life

always

x

Belief Of You:

How much we see and read

information flowing through

the minds deep cortexes

amounting to images

perceptions

replayed over night

thoughts and ideas

concepts and visualisations

how they turn and twist

leaving you wondering

misinterpretation follows often

how it seems is how it isnt

often or not

within the minds eye

clashes of words

 things said lines crossed

random thoughts fitting

like jigsaw pieces

without realising

corners tabs cut

to mold a picture untrue

take a minute take a second

pause and breath

reflect and ask

communicate with the one

and see the words

listen to the sounds

and know its not always

as the mind percieves

as the demon shrinks

and the doors slam

to the darkness of confusion

~X~

Then An Now:

What is but this thing
that I hold so precious
that allows me to see
all that is
for there in
lies the beauty
of it all
everything I touch
all that I feel
that I desire
want and need
in this here world
all that resides
and yet seems
to just pass me by
here today
gone tomorrow
leaving me with a sense
of welcome and hope
an utter glory
filling my mind body and soul
with
faith and belief
clutched tightly to my heart
for there is always
the promise
of another tomorrow

~X~

Left Alone:

The vale you wear
is but a thin disguise
to your ruby lips
of seductive lies
spoken softly
utterances of sweetness
devotional idol-ship
as if the only one
now left broken
laying torn strewn
across the floor
as if irrelevant tales
of what was before
like the many shards
of the broken mirror
where I held you so
in all that was you
when that moment
all I wanted needed
was your very words
now unwanted unneeded
left in this mired world
of utter confusion
as I'm led in state
for all to process
with the words
the heart grew fonder
but the body broke
for surely
too much love
will kill you

~

Where I want to be:

How can it be better then this
when your facing me
holding me in your grasp
clutching me to you
keeping me safe
from woes and betides
that lurk in the darkness
what would be easier then to fall
deep into your eyes
and simply float away
their boats maybe sinking
all around them so
beyond saving
but I will always have
in you my saving grace
and whilst the rain falls
and the sun shines
leafs turn red an yellow
cold winds blow sheltered in you
I find myself secure
to be but always me
words said undone
passed and left
is of no consequence
but for this moment
when you tell me
I am I will be
the only one
to catch you when you fall
upon the rising tides
of the storms below

X

London:

City lights gleam like neons
on the cold wet stones
of the pavement below my feet
finding myself walking
in the rain
thoughts of you thoughts of me
as I pass by the glares
of fast food diners
long closed to the night dwellers
garbage trucks do the rounds
collecting the city's refuse
undetected unnoticed
whilst sleeping tramps snore
upon a bench
here and there
scattered through out suburbia
walking on down the street
I notice from the shadows
past my feet slinks a cat
on his way to meet a friend
or feed on the city's left overs
the cold embraces my bones
and I clutch the collar tighter
of my favourite winter coat
cars and bikes left long ago
the streets to the ghosts
of a bygone life
reaching steep steps
I grasp the rail and walk down
to a film of as if ink
lights glitter on the surface
from the bridges and banks
I stand by the river
watching listening
as waves lap against the shore
from passing night travellers
who partied the evening away
now tired and surely
en-route home to warm beds
the only glow that of a street lamp
shining a golden misty beam
upon a wet seat
were drew upon I do
thinking feeling nothing
but breathing the air
of a different time
and slowly I drift away
to were I am home
safe and sound
and creature comforts
sit in places designed
as the fire coals glow
shedding their warmth
upon my body so
and tea swirls its vapours
feeling my head with sweetness
I am awoken with a jolt
to find a policeman stood afore me so
excuse me sir but I'm afraid you cant sleep there
move along take yourself home
your catch a cold
with a nod and a smile
I stand and bid him goodnight
and slowly make my way home
without mentioning ever
to the officer
this is but my home

~X~

Summit:

This life before me so
born of age
in a busying world
of manic tirades
and fast cars
finding feet to walk
let alone run
when even not asked
to be all you can be
to achieve to soar
upon great heights
as if a mountain
reaching for the heavens
great is the man
they say
who succeeds in life
to be oh such more
but what if the wish
is to be but me
for that is all I can
ever really be
only ever for me
and whilst the walk is far
and progress unsteady
I know one day
somehow
I will reach the summit
of all I am
and then I will know
I will see and feel
I am truly at one
with me
with you
with this here life
set before me so
until then just for now
I shall keep on
but walking
with
me

~X~

Gone By:

It gets difficult to breath
to see to know
where one is begining
and where one will surely end
the journey becomes long
and unduly tiring
with no sign of rest along the way
doubt creeps in
fears play out
as if a black and white movie
light pales to a dimness
long missed
much needed
to warm the faint hearted
and as the steps slow
noticing below the feet
are but the fallen
of those that became redundent
to the steps that are life
being all you can
breathing living
this life once
until the end
as you walk on water

~X~

Breathing:

Neon electric dreams
coursing through my mind
in the early hours
of the morning
darkness falls
like a velvet blanket
but words spoken
uttered and offered
hold me closer
keeping me warm
and my heart
so very much alive
as its beats resound
with a hope
a belief
in this journey
so show my heart
some of your emotion
and watch as my eyes
light up like those of candles
burning bright through the gloom
afore us so
showing you the way
unto me and were I be
waiting for you
as we turn and twist
in a lovers embrace
of my neon electric dreams
of but you

<3